Answer To Prayer - Part One

Just got the initial results back from the doctor - which were the 3 main chromosome issues. The rest of the results take longer and we will know by next week. Baby Hannah tested negative for the two most fatal chromosome issues - Trisomy 13 and 18!! She also tested negative for Trisomy 21 (Down Syndrome)...which is good, but we weren't nearly as concerned about that as we were the fatal ones.

Doctors still aren't very "hopeful" or "positive" but we know they aren't exactly in control : ) As I've said quite often, God knows how Hannah was made - He knows far more than any of us do. So glad that He is the one guiding this journey...

Thank you for your prayers - keep continuing! She is not "out of the woods" yet, but we are certainly grateful to rule out a few of the possible issues.

Beautiful

Baby Hannah is growing beautifully. That was the positive report from my high-risk doctor. We had our favorite high-risk doctor doing the ultrasounds and various other tests yesterday. She is awesome. Baby Hannah always cooperates for her - coincidence? I doubt it ; ) Hannah seems to have a good sense of people already...that's my girl! Results from the tests will come at the end of this week at the earliest. I'll update as soon as I can.

Everything is still the same otherwise. She has possible clubbed foot, but that's the least of our worries right now - doesn't worry me in the least. She is beautiful. Hannah is thriving now - inside the womb - I just pray that she can thrive beautifully once she is born. I know God hears our prayers...and I know He knows the what the future holds. I thank God that Hannah is growing beautifully - and thank Him for giving her this life right now... she has made it a long way already.

I haven't been able to express how deeply I feel about my daughter and all her issues right now. The feelings go too deep... too tender... just no way to adequately describe what is going on in my heart. I will say, however, whenever I pray - or ask for prayer - a certain song comes to mind. Whenever I talk about "all I want for her is to live..." the same song comes to mind. I hear it often on the radio, and it brings me to tears, at times I have to turn it off. It was sung at my cousin's funeral - so it has extra meaning, as well. The song is "Give Me Jesus", sung by Jeremy Camp. Simple words, but good words. The perspective this song portrays is the perspective we all should have - I am struggling with that right now - but only with the line that says "You can have all this world, but give me Jesus..." When I get to that line in the song, that's when I change the channel, or quit listening. To be honest, I struggle with that - what if God asks me to give up my daughter? I hate thinking about that. Hate it. But it is reality. It's hard to explain to people unless you are facing the same thing right now with your unborn child - I don't expect anyone to understand what it's like to be faced with this reality. I pray that I don't have to, however - I also pray that God would prepare my heart if I do need to. I will close this post with the song "Give Me Jesus" by Jeremy Camp.

More Appointments....

This Monday at 3:00pm we have another high-risk appointment/ultrasound/ and more testing done. It's going to take at least a few hours. Please pray... there's a bit more to this appointment than usual.

Mixed feelings of course... definitely becoming more anxious as time goes on...

Thank you...

A Letter To My Girl

Dear Hannah Joy,

I don't have much to say these days, just many thoughts. So...I decided to write a letter to you. Many doctors and specialists are watching us closely to make sure you and I both are in good health. Daddy and I are grateful for that. In less that 8 weeks we get to meet you! We are excited, but admittedly anxious. We are excited to meet you, however the doctors tell us they found some things in your body that aren't working as they should be...so we are anxious about that. Daddy and I know that God is in control, and He created you just as you are!

Big brother Micah has grown to love you more and more each day. Many times a day he will stop what he is doing and run over to me and hug you (my stomach), and say "I love Hannah", or "Nite Nite Hannah!". He loves to give you many kisses, too. The other day he felt you kick him and he jumped back saying "Oh no!"... it was very precious. I love how you get excited when you hear his voice! He sure loves to talk about "Baby Hannah". He loves you, little girl, and I know he can't wait to meet you, either.

I love to feel you move inside of me. You are wild! Your Aunt Sarah said you probably have bright red hair - (just like Mama did - which would explain your wild nature) ... that made me laugh! I love that you love church. You love to "dance" during worship time, and you are quite active when listening to the Pastor preach! Your big brother was that way too when he was growing inside of me. Most of all, I love when you hear your Daddy's voice. You immediately react - if you have been calm and still, as soon as you hear him you kick and roll, and wait for him to come talk to you : ) It is precious beyond words, sweet girl. You have already stolen your Daddy's heart!

We are praying for you every day, as are many people across the country. You have many family and friends that love you so much...keep growing strong, baby girl - you are in God's hands... the safest place to be! We love you so much, and are looking forward to seeing you soon.

Love,
Your Mama

Appointments

We have an appointment with the Pediatric Cardiologist and a Pediatric Urologist this Thursday (back to back) at the Children's Hospital. Going to look at Hannah's heart, kidneys & bladder more closely. Please pray the appointments go smoothly. For some reason I'm not looking forward to it - feeling a bit anxious. This begins the mass amount of frequent appointments (high-risk, regular pre-natal, and various specialists) between now and delivery time.