Not Much New...

I had my routine monthly prenatal check up with my ob/gyn yesterday. I do love him. He's a great doctor, with a lot of wisdom. Very calm, doesn't do excess procedures (most non-invasive doctor I have ever been to), and he is encouraging. He asked if I had questions, and I froze. I ended up asking about birthing options (when, what it will be like, VBAC options, c-sections, etc). He was very encouraging about a VBAC and said I am perfectly fine having one, at this point (as in if the baby's condition remains as is). For the off-chance that we decide to do a repeat c-section - to ensure we have a spot on the schedule - we went ahead and scheduled a c-section with him for September. We most likely will not need it...depending on how baby progresses.

As for anything regarding the baby's condition - the topic started to come up, but somehow I changed the subject. I did not want to hear anything negative yesterday. He had begun to talk about what the baby will be like after its born (the complications, etc). I couldn't listen to it yesterday. I realize that may not make sense to most of you - but I just couldn't do it. I need a little "rest" from the heaviness of this situation. I have my next high-risk ultrasound next week, so that will be soon enough for me to be ready to discuss the tough issues with the doctors again.

On a positive note, this baby continues to be wildly active. I have been thoroughly enjoying watching this baby kick me! At 23 weeks, this baby is so unbelievably strong that I can see the kicks from my stomach already. It is so sweet... and precious - truly something I am cherishing each day.

Thank you all for your continued love, prayers, and encouragement... we are blessed.